Stuck for thoughts

I've been sitting her for a while trying to write something. I've started writing about the conflict in Georgia, but i failed. I don't know enough and don't wholeheartedly care enough yet. Sadly, as it is not directly concearning me, i am having a hard time really caring. This is one of the big flaws in humanity, no? I've been wanting to write about sulusponsor, but i am not really ready to tell any much of it yet. I don't want to tell about my work before i've worked for a while and have a picture of me in uniform. School has not started yet and i am living with a great (and interesting) family that feels almost like my second home. But i don't really want to write about them ether right now. So i'll just have to write out the feeling of my writers block, or my lack of emediate writing skill. All i've mentioned here could make full and multiple and good blogposts. Eventually they will. So why does my head insist on not working?

It'll come to me.

There's one main obstacle to blogging

To me there's one main obsticle to blogging. It's not that i haven't got enough toughts, my head is full and it's wonderfull to structure the mess in there into a blogpost. It's not that my life is too empty, because i'm better at describing thoughts, wishes and dreams then actual events anyways. It's not that i don't really want to blog, it's a plesant thing to do. And it's not that i don't think anyone reads it - i know that the people i care about to read it quite likely will.

No, there's one main obstacle, and that's silence. Silence in form of solitude, lack of background noises, lack of big distractions. If i am to write something long, it would usually have to happen over multiple shifts, because there will be distractions in the meantime. Today has been one of the most distraction-free days in absolute ages. It has felt wonderfull. Even so, my first blogpost here happened over multiple stages. There was a rather long conversation with my sisters boyfriend and there was making dinner inbetween before it was done.Most days, my working days or school days or want-something-done days, it's very hard to find or take time to write.

I'll try my best not to disappoint with this blog, though.

Freedom in living

This is my fourth blog. The last three, wich are all in norwegian, have trivial names; Vaugely translated, "Thinking-thoughts", "Writings" and "Thor's photoblog". This fourth blog will hopefully be my most important and personal blog, and i thought it should have a name that meant something.

My wish for life is to really live it, and to do so freely. To travel where i wish, spend my time where i want, with who i want. Get to know and love more people. Do things worthwhile. See the world, learn new tounges, learn new skills. Hug everyone, flourish like a person and be who i really am.

My life is not like that right now, but i'm trying to make it so. My first thought for a name was "the struggle for freedom", but it sounds a bit dramatic, don't you think? My chains are no worse then a bigish loan and the need for an education. When the chains are gone, i've got tickets here and there to living life. In two years, hopefully, there will be no real chains.

"Freedom in living", as you see, is my vision and my hope, and hopefully in not too long will be something i can live by. The vision is perhaps a airy and idealistic one, and one i would be embarassed with a lot of people reading. If people in real life asked me about this, i would shrug it off and change the subject. But this is my real vision, and what i really want to do. I'm just not secure enough about it yet.